Life of a trainer

It’s a trainers life for me

Instilling knowledge for a fee

Smiling and passionate

Positive and spirited

Frustrated and concerned

Worried and perturbed

Its a trainers life for me

Not perfect or done with perfection

But there to teach and engage

There to smile and show passion

There to nurture potential and share

Its a trainers life for me

To live in realities and know the barriers

To be honest, open and transparent

To take off the rose coloured glasses

To let the carers know I have been there

I know the life and have lived the life

The need to adapt and change some minds

The aim remind carers to be kind

To ensure the most vulnerable people get what care they need

It’s a trainers life for me

Sharing, caring and valuing

Reminded that carers should be valued and respected

That carers need to understand there will be the unexpected

The shift of a day

The shout of a voice

The scream in pain

The upset of fear

The unpredictable events

The journey they will be part of will not be a straight road

The road will have twists and turns

Some harder then others and some tricky with an up hill incline

The everyday tasks to the most poignant

of moments

The tears of success the tears of loss

Its a trainers life for me

Reminding you carers you don’t just wash and wipe a body

You comfort, care, enable and listen

You wipe away tears and encourage belly laughs

You are not just encouraging existence, you are enabling living

Carers you make me do the job I do and I choose the trainer life for me.

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Happiness and Grief

Sharing just because it’s Sunday

Attention to Care

When I smile does is mean I have forgotten you

When I laugh does it mean I’ve moved on

When I cry does it mean I will not stop

When my sadness is painted over my face does it mean people think I am miserable

The moments I forget your gone does it mean I am in denial

Happiness and grief mingle together

The patterns are intertwined

You will be one then the other.

Moments of grief that pounce upon you with no warning

The little reminders of them fleetingly cloud your thoughts

The ball in the face moment reminding you they are gone

Then happiness takes over and you smile

You smile with joy with no tinge of sadness

You laugh from your tummy, loud and free

But then the smile changes as you are reminded of their smile

The emotions are rapid, senseless and varied

But they are…

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Happiness and Grief

When I smile does is mean I have forgotten you

When I laugh does it mean I’ve moved on

When I cry does it mean I will not stop

When my sadness is painted over my face does it mean people think I am miserable

The moments I forget your gone does it mean I am in denial

Happiness and grief mingle together

The patterns are intertwined

You will be one then the other.

Moments of grief that pounce upon you with no warning

The little reminders of them fleetingly cloud your thoughts

The ball in the face moment reminding you they are gone

Then happiness takes over and you smile

You smile with joy with no tinge of sadness

You laugh from your tummy, loud and free

But then the smile changes as you are reminded of their smile

The emotions are rapid, senseless and varied

But they are what you feel, they are your way of grieving

They will bring you comfort in time and the sadness can be watered down

The grief will be there but the joy of knowing them will give comfort

Happiness and grief go hand in hand but be sure to smile and laugh be sure to remember

How you feel is you and no one can tell you not to feel

Sunday 4th August

Well it’s been 4 months since Grumpy died and things have continued to move forward, everyone is doing well and working out life without Grumpy. Mum has had the biggest change as she now has freedom. Not that she regrets being a carer but now she can actually look after herself and decide when to do things. She still of course misses the love of her life and I can not imagine how it must feel to have been with someone so long and now to be a widow. Mum has been able to go away a few times once back to South shield with my niece, then a holiday with my other niece and her family and then to us in Cambridge when she drove her on her own for the first time ever. As you can see life continues and mum grows with each day to be independent.

Decided to blog today as it’s a quiet day and I am sat in my back yard listening to music and just taking in the day. I have thought about dad a lot today and found it shocking it was already 4th August and dad died 3rd April wow how time moves on. I have written about loss and that there is no right or wrong way to think about loss. I still look back and wish I had got home but I realise now it just was not what was suppose to happen. I am so lucky that I have photos and memories that I can sit and look at. Social media you remind us of those memories I can imagine for some people this is not a positive thing but for me it’s a reminder of how we valued moments.

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I have now set up a new instagram @attentiontocare please check it out.

This is just a quick post just to say I am still here and that I aim to do more on writing about care. I need to now focus on getting the word out that care is important and needs to be valued. So check out my instagram and my face book page.

See you later have a great week