I have been quiet!

Me and Mental Wellbeing

Sometimes you just gets carried away and you forget to take a moment to just stop and do something as simple as sitting in the garden. At present I am working mainly doing  “in house training”. On the plus side it is work (which if fantastic) on the flip side it does mean long days and quite a bit of additional travelling, which means I’ve not had time to stop, think and contemplate.  Even on my trip to Brugge texts and calls were coming into my mobile and I was thinking abut work; which was not ideal

Currently, I have a number of new blog ideas and will try to get these down and posted soon. However, for now I am sat here in the garden preparing for next week, compiling a powerpoint for Mental Health Awareness training. Which has got me thinking  and I decided to stop for a moment and blog.

Today while looking on information and refreshing my knowledge on Mental Health I was able to think of my own Mental Wellbeing (its not something I talk about a lot  or even try to think about to much).

Like many people, I can say that periods of my life has challenged my mental wellbeing. While researching the prevalence of mental health I realised that more people develop mental health issues at a younger age.  The amount of young people that suffer anxiety and depression is quite worrying. However, when I think back I realise that I suffered anxiety as a youngster, its just that the name was not used or the awareness of Mental Health was not what it is now.

Mental Health unfortunately did follow me into adulthood and its only now I admit what it is, I used to just ignore it and would never ever admit to labelling how I was feeling (not sure why but a hidden illness comes to mind). Some of how I felt was about loss of control and fear of what might happen to my family or friends and then it would build so I would feel anxious.

I am lucky I have a supportive husband who has admitted that he is still learning about Mental Health, and initially did not understand why I react to the simplest of issues in the way I did, and seemly blow them out of all proportion. Now though, he does and he helps me to structure things and take control which has helped. This has allowed me to manage my mental wellbeing to a degree .

I now recognise and am more aware of times in my life, when my Mental Well being has been challenged and I am trying to be more open and honest about my feeling and not hiding them away for fear of judgement and what might happen.(Work in progress)

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  • Taking control of my financial situation (thanks to my husband) as now I am not as afraid about money as I used to be.
  • Autonomy within my career which has allowed me control (well some control).
  • Trying to open up a little more to my husband.
  • Being aware that I am not in a good place and trying to not ignore.
  • Trying to organise my life a little more.
  • Enjoying simple things in life.
  • Sitting in the garden and just focussing on whats important.

Don’t get me wrong this is not a quick fix , but it has helped me greatly and given me peace of mind. I am hopeful that as time goes on things will continue to progress and I will continue to work on myself. IMG_0250.JPG

I sit here now and feel good and feel happy I can take moments like this (yes I am working but working outside has a different feeling). I wouldn’t want anyone to think that I am suffering I am not I am just sharing which I think is a massive step. Hiding is not the answer, feeling embarrassed is not a feeling we should feel, being scared to admit how we feel today is not allowing us to heal.

So today I am good but hey tomorrow it might be different. However, as I say make the most of the good days and feel alive as life will still be there and will still need you to breath. Just stop take a moment, look at the simple things like our cat Kobe needing attention from the most caring man I know.

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Don’t forget to take pleasure in the simplest of things because that will give you joy and joy is the greatest defence against feeling low. Stay safe, speak up and do not hide away.

 

Maxine

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Scotland and its beauty 

A five day break to Scotland with some very special people who I love dearly. Lots of things to grab you attention and to allow you to drift into a day dream of retiring to the beauty that is Arygle and Bute area. As I wake every  morning to a stunning view even though the crane seems to get in the way it is still marvellous. I have loved every moment, even when the key got lost and we had to drive back to find them. The breath taking scenery has been amazing and just allows you to escape life for a moment. Having a son who has appreciated the beauty has really enhanced the time here. I am a lucky lady to have fallen in love with a Scotsman.  

    
    
    
    
    
    
    

It knows I though it was a Red Squirrel as now its being very blatant in its stealing of my Apples.

Brave and Brash Grey Squirrel. The subject is closed now and never to be re-opened (well unless it does tricks). Its very brave now even looking at me as I take the picture. Well Squirrel watch needs to be over before my family form an intervention group. What a day of hope to be dashed that its an every day GREY one. Well thank you x P1090394 (2) P1090419 (2) P1090423 (2) P1090425 (2)

Not a Red Squirrel :( However, a sneaky Grey Squirrel :)

Well the Red Squirrel Survival Trust have confirmed that said Squirrel is not a RED one.

Email Reply

From: info@rsst.org.uk
Sent: ‎Monday‎, ‎20‎ ‎July‎ ‎2015 ‎14‎:‎53
To: maxine allen
Sorry to disappoint you but its a grey.  There’s a red tinge to the fur but the ears and tail are unmistakeable.
Many thanks for sending a picture.  You’d be surprised how many people don’t.

Kind regards,
RSST

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I am slightly disappointed as at 2.15 pm to day I got these lovely snaps of him/her.
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09:40 on Monday 20th July in the Year 2015 and I am still on Squirrel Watch!

Oh dear, 4 emails sent (so some work) and now this is how bad its got 🙂

FullSizeRender (2)Camera is at the ready, I am now positioned so that I can move like a gazelle if required (maybe an exaggeration). Think of way to coax the little mite onto my shed roof so that I can get a better shot (not self indulgent for conservation purposes). Still no reply from The Red Squirrel Survival Trust.  Think may actually name him/her. This is not an obsession I have decided its an Interest (sounds so much better). Now must get back to marking work for the Health and Social care Diploma so that I can get back to Squirrel Watch later.

11:56 no sighting but that is mainly due to the pile that is mounting on my sofa, I do have a system that I am trying to focus on but I have to confess I am still intrigued by the squirrel and whether it will be back by the end of the day. Lots of annoying pigeons doing battle but I don’t feel the need to photograph those. Right back to the marking it is (shame can’t have a glass of vino to get me through the marking). Well here is hoping for squirrel watch to produce another sighting. Even the cat is getting in the way. Oh and come on RSST get back to me please.

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Squirrel Watch

Morning of 20/07/15 I find myself obsessing over a little creature that I found in the trees behind my house yesterday. I was lucky enough that he/she decided to come back and visit yesterday evening.  So what do I find myself doing this morning instead of getting my 10 year old ready for school? I find myself sat with coffee in hand at my back window staring out at the said trees for any glimpse of he/she visiting again.

Yesterday I even sent an email to The Red Squirrel Survival Trust asking them to verify if the said squirrel is a red one. Oh what has my life come to that I take more time on Squirrel Watch then I do checking that 10 year old has boxers, matching socks on.

Pictures of yesterday evening watch  in case you are as obsessed as me and can’t start your day with out a squirrel fix.P1090241 (2) P1090246 (2) P1090259 (2) P1090275 (2) P1090278 (2)

Update at 08:07 no sighting today as yet. I have to tell myself to work today and not look out of the window with camera in hand. 

09:13 spotted the little mite but not quick enough with camera, now must move away and do some work, not sure squirrel watch is a valid excuse to take time off.